Posted on November 6, 2011
A lot of things have been going through my mind lately. And as much as I know that I have to face my own thoughts, I drown them by keeping myself distracted. And as much as I type and write, stare at the ceiling, and hold my own hand, I just feel so disconnected from my own self. I should write some more. I should write these thoughts down so I can finally organize them and again talk to myself. I have been hiding, not wanting to be found.
I want words that matter to me. I want to hear words of reassurance from someone who knows and who cares. I want to again speak of words so genuine that my heart skips with every syllable. I want to be true and real. I want to feel again and not dread feeling too much.
Melodrama in cyberspace addressed to no one but myself. I refuse to be distracted. Tonight, I shall write.
